the café

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god kept breaking my heart until I opened it

where i met my shadow self

and changed my name to integrate him
new affirmations just dropped
someone here posted this Visa thread a few days ago. I haven't stopped thinking about it.

https://x.com/visakanv/status/1861598036314726655
last night I had a dream that I built an MCP integration for a spaceship so that Claude could hack into it while I jumped around on the outside and ripped pieces off

so today we're building an MCP for Todoist
i installed an app that makes me wait five seconds before I can open Warpcast (and other apps I choose)

and uh...

i might quit farcaster? for a bit?

it's just so nice being off social media for... thirty seconds.
there hasn't been a real opportunity to say this without it being a yucky out of context flex so i'mma seize this one:

since my knee surgery, i have been >90% from the field.

dunno wtf it is but suddenly i'm hitting nearly every shot, with anything, from any angle that has a clear line of sight in my apartment.

¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

✅ laundry
✅ keys
✅ wallet
✅ soda cans
✅ dog treats
✅ food scraps

maybe saying this will snap the streak, but the streak has been unbelievably good luck already, and especially during a period of time where every miss was EXTRA costly, so, like, so be it. thank you, universe. 🙏
PT cleared me to walk today, mostly, which is a celebration

yesterday was 4 weeks post-op, so I'm ahead of schedule

shouldn't walk MUCH yet, but she said if there's no pain then the crutches would most likely teach me bad habits

still probably two more weeks before i'm cleared to "go for a walk" but this is... a moment 🥲

CONSISTENCY! PHYSIO!

I can see my quad muscle disappearing. my brace needed to be tightened today, and there's a clear, visible difference between them now.

this used to be the larger of my legs, and by a dramatic margin at a point in time last year (ascending ropes was usually a one legged affair). hopefully easier to keep them even now that one's been reset. 😜
i built a pantheon last night

kanye's in it
so is greta

and the gods are angry
super productive today, at least compared to recent days.

gonna pin it on improved sleep, prep, and, most importantly, not feeling so overwhelmed.

amazing what you can do when you feel like you can do anything.

"1% better" is in effect.

now for consistency.
started setting up personal infrastructure today. gonna be building a new life protocol system from (more or less) scratch again, this time with two objectives:

1. make it safe to ignore everything and focus on a task
2. minimize decision fatigue and analysis paralysis

bolt on a few supporting habits, and the system should be light enough to get me going while motivations, values, and aspirations get constructed below it
leg hurts a lot today. didn't sleep well last night and bumped it pretty good today.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

that's life with a dog.

i *gotta* be doing more physio at home. i got back to walking REAL quick, but my range of motion is barely moving and the clock is ticking.

this week, gonna focus on injecting some normalcy, stability, and routine back into my life. poor sleep puts everything else on hard mode, and i am *ahem* TIRED of it. plus, physio doesn't stand a chance if i can't figure out how to do it regularly.
well, first café construction update, might as well come clean:

im walking on my knee.

probably shouldn't be. certainly not *cleared* to be. but i am.

i'm tryna be good about using my crutches whenever i leave the house, but at home i'm like, uhhh... fuck it.

there's not a lot of ground to cover — it's pretty cramped at my place actually, and that's part of what makes it such a bitch to get around on crutches.

but despite disobeying doctor's orders, it's still good news! my knee is healing well enough that i at least *feel* safe hobbling 20 feet around my apartment a couple times a day.

so sleep is the next obstacle, now that pain is being managed well enough. i'm... historically not good at sleep. so i've upgraded to weed gummies (yayy, reward!) to signal bedtime (booo, boring!) and put my ass to bed.

AAAAAND,

now that the election has come and gone...

i can kick the habit of watching clips of colbert and seth meyers on youtube every night.

i think a better habit there will go a long way. 🙏
🙃 pardon our dust! 🙂

apologies, the café is closed for repair.

details in 🧵 👇
for some reason there are two sentiments growing inside me at a pretty even rate

one is becoming more and more anti-capitalist

and the other is becoming free market-pilled
"... any attempt to reduce politics to design is also an attempt to reduce people to machines or mechanical beings."
"... the age-old temptation to substitute design for the political process."
if you're in governance

pivot to stewardship
started vs revealed debate has bugged me — just figured out why

we often state our intentions before we live them

allow me to choose a better world for myself by honoring my decision rather than exploiting my nature
art has always been dead

that's the point of it
i will maintain that Bo's "Inside" is THE art piece of the pandemic.
they do Mario Kart Monday at the corner bar, and I think this is the revival of third places that we need right now.
i will now and forevermore be referring to it as "async and NSYNC" work
more patterns bots aren't emulating: respond over the course of TWO replies, in sequence.
art is not the product of productive labor.

art is the waste product of a spiritual practice.