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a place for memories; a place for thoughts.

roughly...

100k on bitcoin
100k on base
1 mil on pulsechain
200k on ethereum
10k on solana

talk to me about crypto exposure...

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2 years ago around this time i had double jaw surgery n woke up alone
on a hospital bed, scared.
but filled with hope

1 year ago around this time i drank n smoked myself into forgetting my loneliness and the broken promises,
with a new perspective on rope

now -- this time
i dont know what ill do
im a parasite i guess,
im a parasite... i guess...
now filled with cope.

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i guess were visiting the psychiatrist n therapist

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gm - one day until my birthday and im feelin like death walkin

bros my ex called me a parasite ..πŸ˜’ im heartbroken, sad and also amused at the juxtaposition of life. this one girl has spurned my love and rejected me so completely - im legit sub-human in her eyes. someone i dated for 8 years on and off. someone i loved dearly...

im... a... parasite.

what juxtaposition? the one where i walk outside and feel like im an actual blessing to peoples lives. what parasitic behavior do i possess that someone i care about will paint me as such...

im fucked up sad as fuk kms
vitaliks fascination with co2 levels..

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my warpcast wall is way too sane :( i miss the old danny...

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open /x/ and get subjected to all the things your parents tried to shield you from and warn against.

open /warpcast/ it feels like your first day in school.

/instagram/ it feels like a college party and youre floating between being intrinsic and extrinsic unsure how to express.

my very first social media was xanga. blogging always seemed second nature.πŸ’­
might dip out early from LA after this speaker series... nouns events feel like im at someones bbq. super chill...

lol idk modelo time
my blood pressure runs low... but hot... 😈
the amount of people not championing and doubling down behind Dan owning the channel is odd to me.

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blue light special

A state of euphoria hovering from extreme excitability and cool, calm and collected.. some would coin this 'eye of the storm' as /GOD MODE/.

a mixture of uppers and downers at any level can achieve this... right now its 3 expressos and some og kush.

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(it is the loneliest state of being one can achieve)

true god mode is love.
i dont think ill ever get her back..

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as a kid i used to lol when i saw older people depressed.
MOVE ON BRO LOL.
as a kid i uzed to lol when older people would get sad about breakups.
HAHA THERES SO MANY FISH IN THE SEA.

as a kid i used to think many things... im still a kid but now i know what heartbreak feels like.
ill be fine
it's not the first
Just like last time
but a little worse
she said that I'm not the one that she thinks about
she said it stopped being fun, I just bring her down
ill be fine
it's not the first
Just like last time
but a little worse...


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told my ex i wish i never met her... thats where im at right now.

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but im also blocked... so its not very effective.
why did she leave..

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1 week until my birthday and then ill be 35..

no kids
no wife
no life

i couldnt find love in 35 years. imagine the next? i dont want to... im your societal anomaly - i check every box you desire. but i just want to leave this earth. ill try to leave an impact first.

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theyre gonna be like..

danny youre such a loose cannon and honestly i just dont know if we can handle that.

how?

well i saw you arguing with dan

i was? oh you mean when he arrived to the first farcaster friday like fred from the flintstones?

well... i saw you arguing with wake recently too?

i was? ohhhh you mean when he was bullying the local lunch lady?!

welllll...



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i just ran into hella pictures of me and my ex lookin for a got darn pfp.. now im gonna throw tf up.

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Getting the opportunity to be able to create a community with the love of my life, where she was the artist and I was the degen crypto explorer, seemed like a dream to me..

..then it became a dream.

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i understand why you choose to stay anon with the way you move on the internet..

i really do.
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i keep wakin up in the middle of the night for some reason.. is it the money callin my name or the demons in the back of my brain

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bro im about to get sent into spam sending dan stupid positive affirmations on his casts..

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queen of sadcore settles with a gator ridin florida man... doesnt leave much room for hope for my sad ass.

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