proofoflife

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Apologies for the nerfed virtual sharing & communication.

I’ve been working overtime on being present & productive (irl) & I have a lot more to do irl. The blue light from these screens have been turbo fatiguing since my surgery which isn’t ideal for music/art haha but limiting using them rn is necessary. 🫂
I Documented decades of music legacy, backstory, lore. Then evolved to documenting critical events, trauma, doom, despair & hope in real time. The most self doxed onchain. Healing hiatus will be followed by magic. I’m charged, regardless where attention & sentiment is distracted.

Bet on a happy, healthy Dutch.
The thing about being early, terminally active & hyper observerant is data = humans / Humans = Data

Human Data is screaming I am not welcomed in this new world, & music, art & intention isn’t valued either. In an era of basically free collects & still crickets, how/why do justify continued participation?
A Final? Thread 🧵

Suspending a lifetime of privacy, mystery & magic post 2020, came with an unexpected super happy chapter (wanna refrain from verbiage like ending) but this personal pivot happening while the web pivoted to something I can’t align with came at a cost.

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I’m not adapting to exploitive models & def not participating in fueling anything that helps remove human connection in a world where human connection, expression & creation has been strategically nerfed already going on decade.

No “chance” to earn / profit is worth co-signing the disposable content machine.
It’s been interesting posting photos I took on my old phone across the U.S. in Organic Discover with A.I. being so prevalent. This almost looks like a prompt, in reality I was laying in grass to capture this & make it look like a mountain when it was just a tiny rocks in the front yard. I hope human creativity still has a place in this world being built.
"dutchist." (Documented AbletonLive Training) 2012

https://foundation.app/mint/eth/0x5A1EC1729D8b9b78d3D7C1E9c782e2CD0476c4b6/5

one of those rare moments in world building, where fate stepped in & captured the exact moment in time A huge creative pivot began. Love being able to tie these artifacts together like this
https://foundation.app/mint/eth/0x53555647d8447B9AFb409b817EF4202F12C3Efb1/7

Concept Art from the very early design stages of "Junk Planet" designed by Dutch (1999)

Using A photo taken by Majik Most, of Dutch sitting in the back of a Tampa Bay city bus.

Scanned into the computer, dithered in photoshop, printed on paper, cut, placed over a drawing trying to match the aesthetic of the front art work of the album cover for Junk Planet .
12" VINYL JACKET FINAL TEST (The Ego Has Landed) (2004)
https://foundation.app/mint/eth/0x53555647d8447B9AFb409b817EF4202F12C3Efb1/6

The final cover art for the 2nd 12" single from "Junk Planet" approved by the Label before sent to the pressing plant.
Proof of Life (Contintued) Collection added to Dutchyyy.xyz

Collections
https://dutchyyy.xyz/nft-gallery
flipabeatclub #35 (Sample Challenge)

Proof of Super Producer.
Having A friend staying w/ me briefly while I heal has been the missing ingredient. Forever present, expressing & exchanging inspiration w/ a human irl makes this virtual world inconsequential for those moments.

This peace is temporary if rooted in exchanging resonance & energy tho.

Gotta reprogram priorities.
This week should be full of magical moments and memories. I’ve done everything in my power to create those in isolation, unfortunately I’m starved of sharing those experiences, while losing outlets to meaningful share in real time, while also subjected to rage inducing discourse about topics I’ve dedicated my life to.

I can only ignore the noise if there’s a meaningful exchange of energy available to validate or bounce feedback off of.

If you’re an artist, trying to lock in. Virtual exposure to sentiments, trends, discourse, and unavoidable depressing and grim observations were losing more meaningful tools to reach daily.

What would you do? If you were decades in, no breaks, no wavering, dues paid 100x over. & the only thing based on the collective conscious thought hive is signaling. “You are wasting your time” pivot to hvac or plumbing.

These aren’t thoughts I want tied to a huge life changing milestone.

My hope feels foolish in a void, and fear & resentment overpower
Acknowledgement goes so far.

Communication is so undervalued & unappreciated.

What I’ve learned after 4 years in this space. Being early, being consistent, being supportive, being prolific, being brave, being genuine, being honest amounts to zero (w/ minimal exception)

Years of positive actions & love erased by communicating openly about the issues everyone’s also seeing & feeling but won’t risk being direct outside the private chats.

Acknowledge / communication goes so far.

I gave this space way to much unconditionally to be wondering where did all that love go. Where did decency & integrity go.

If this is a really just a modern day opportunistic mean girls, false optimism, curated cult of flimsy moral, disguised as “vibe” cliques.

It’s disheartening, coming to terms with how everyone that championed & encouraged my journey & selflessness are letting me fall out of love, faith & admiration with what feels like a space that I no longer recognized .
Posting in channels that aren’t my own, feels like I signed up for the anti-social graph haha.

Proof of trying not to lose the faith / mission
I attempted some normal human activities yesterday. Simple things any normal adult can achieve without those simple things even being thought of as an achievement.

I “achieved” climbing a mountain in my world, but immediately my body reminded me, mountains aren’t your reality anymore.

It’s surreal trying to balance this hidden, complicated and difficult daily reality I have no choice but to experience while also trying to navigate being a highly expressive & creative human in a world where genuine expression & creativity aren’t valued & even if that weren’t the case, nearly all pipelines of reach / impact feel like they have been systematically sabotaged to make room for the consumption of brain rot.

Combining both these personal realities is overwhelming. It feels like science fiction. Is this really my life moving forward? Is this really living? Is there even a point to sharing these honest communications.

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Activity is the olive branch.
I don’t function optimally without human connection. Yet, I functioned on all cilinders for years while physically nerfed and ultra isolated. I saw the signs of virtual pipeline being cut off in 2016 & pivoted to not focusing on finishing albums and creating in the moment at all time. Then I pivoted to web3 early 2021 and built the largest body of unique varied work spanning multiple decades, while documenting actual life any pivotal moments good or worth worthy of documented. All of that still exists, yet now web3 resembles web2, the trust is gone, the pipeline is broken. So the incentive or excitement to document is gone, but what’s not gone is what’s already been documented. It’s a lot, it exists. It should be celebrated. I refuse to content mill, I refuse to farmed for volume. I refuse to keep “playing the game” of working hard in broken discovery world when my hard work already exists in excess. I have so much undocumented. No human connection to justify keep sharing it
No internet/ wifi until Monday / Tuesday.

Glass half full. Limited access to exposure of social app sadness.

Glass half empty. My smart house just lost its brain & alarm.

Glass fully empty. Remember glass?

Pivot to carrier pigeons & cave drawings.

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This used to be true. This is the farthest thing from truth right now. How do I know? Because all respected natives aren’t happy, the normies I onboarded aren’t happy & got to tell me “you said this was an escape from ig”

This doesn’t feel better than I.G. This will never be tumblr. This isn’t social. The today feed is rigged & doesn’t work. I loved Zora & the team but none of this makes sense, everyone is confused, it feels so out of touch & out of character.

This won’t scale. You had magic.. but ended up pulling the greatest magic trick making something beloved vanish.

Help me / us understand. We were your dedicated user base & your ignoring us and retweeting shills, feels like a 2021 defi rebase ponzi marketing.

I’m still holding hope, still using it but we deserve transparency. Communicate


https://zora.co/collect/zora:0x51a4f167438deedabbfd6deeb8c50ca271d4d449/7?referrer=0x4534ea62262bf60a63211324f18a4780b8181b9f
I am very stressed @jacob

That stress increases with each public post about how stress free & great the platform I faithfully used and trusted for years is when the reality is all it’s functions were gutted w/o notice and replaced w/ non functional, stress heavy experience.

Help me understand please.
In the future I hope to be able to reflect on this era & laugh at the absurdity of sustaining physical injuries that feel like I was playing full contact sports from simply pressing records on pc from bed.

Sounds not relatable, over exaggerated & not believable but it happened, and there is a bit a comedy in that I’ll appreciate, once I gain back mobility.

This will all make for great book or web toon. No way I don’t get to take all these over the top L’s & transform them into something positive later.

Slice of life 🫂