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marlo
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have completed 3 sessions with the fancy new therapist, but every two weeks doesn’t seem like enough so i’m going to try weekly for the next month. there’s so much i want to work on!
the price is pretty intense but it feels like what i need to invest in most right now, so i’ll make it happen—even if it means i need to start a new alt for feet pics or something 😈
all the work has me feeling pretty lost and liminal, but it’s not a bad place to be. i just want to make sure i maximize the opportunity and not just revert to old patterns and habits, so erring to the side of doing less and being more and seeing what the true priorities are. i expect more clarity and momentum soon
the price is pretty intense but it feels like what i need to invest in most right now, so i’ll make it happen—even if it means i need to start a new alt for feet pics or something 😈
all the work has me feeling pretty lost and liminal, but it’s not a bad place to be. i just want to make sure i maximize the opportunity and not just revert to old patterns and habits, so erring to the side of doing less and being more and seeing what the true priorities are. i expect more clarity and momentum soon
✨ gm ✨
i know it’s not cool but i love a good english breakfast tea (with good cashew milk and raw honey)
i know it’s not cool but i love a good english breakfast tea (with good cashew milk and raw honey)
working on a new artist statement and bio and i might be near the end. it can be challenging to figure out how much of the darkness to include—it’s important to share the reason behind my journey and process up to this point, but i don’t want it to be too heavy
going forward i want to live in a different paradigm though. a lot of my choices have been a reaction to the darkness and pain, but that duality is just another way to keep the dark side alive. it was helpful and important for a time, but now i want complete freedom—what would i chose if i could start again, unburdened and unscathed?
going forward i want to live in a different paradigm though. a lot of my choices have been a reaction to the darkness and pain, but that duality is just another way to keep the dark side alive. it was helpful and important for a time, but now i want complete freedom—what would i chose if i could start again, unburdened and unscathed?
i don’t know what the problem was last night, but she is better today! i think i’ll get a better sleep score tonight 🙏🏻
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i need a new tag for someone trying to kill me with horrific farts
fixed! ✂️
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exciting day. guess what i’m about to go do 🙈
this is a great list of things that can help with anxiety
eating more and avoiding gaps without any physical fuel is a particularly underrated one. any kind of fasting or cutting creates stress hormones that feel like energy but are not good for you over time (like the “energy” you get from caffeine)
i started counting calories this year and discovered i was very low, increased my daily intake by a lot, have been feeling much better, and have not gained any weight despite minimal exercise. i do eat very clean as well, but high carb (lots of fruit and potatoes)
eating more and avoiding gaps without any physical fuel is a particularly underrated one. any kind of fasting or cutting creates stress hormones that feel like energy but are not good for you over time (like the “energy” you get from caffeine)
i started counting calories this year and discovered i was very low, increased my daily intake by a lot, have been feeling much better, and have not gained any weight despite minimal exercise. i do eat very clean as well, but high carb (lots of fruit and potatoes)
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so many new dreams. some highlights:
preparing for a trip by pouring dozens of small glass milk bottles into a large glass jug, but there was more milk than would fit
having dinner with taylor swift at her house. i was sitting on her left in a very dimly lit dining room. there were only one or two others there and it was very calm and quiet
having some kind of stroke and having to fight a raccoon in the dark using only the right side of my body while flailing on the ground 😭🤣
preparing for a trip by pouring dozens of small glass milk bottles into a large glass jug, but there was more milk than would fit
having dinner with taylor swift at her house. i was sitting on her left in a very dimly lit dining room. there were only one or two others there and it was very calm and quiet
having some kind of stroke and having to fight a raccoon in the dark using only the right side of my body while flailing on the ground 😭🤣
something a little different…
felt a bit queasy so had some matcha broth with rice this morning, and it fixed me right up
10/10 would be amazing with soba 🍜
felt a bit queasy so had some matcha broth with rice this morning, and it fixed me right up
10/10 would be amazing with soba 🍜
just tipped my favorite farcasters!
thank you @shazow.eth @samantha @july @horsefacts.eth @afrochicks for being here :)
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thank you @shazow.eth @samantha @july @horsefacts.eth @afrochicks for being here :)
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i started taking melatonin recently
my sleep scores have gone up a lot, and i feel like i’m able to relax into a deeper level of sleep that allows me to do more physical healing. i also don’t wake up as often from sounds. definitely worth trying if you are a light sleeper!
my sleep scores have gone up a lot, and i feel like i’m able to relax into a deeper level of sleep that allows me to do more physical healing. i also don’t wake up as often from sounds. definitely worth trying if you are a light sleeper!
i completed my second session with the fancy new therapist recently
we did parts work with tapping, speaking to different ages of myself, starting with prenate. working with my infant self absolutely broke me for some reason
despite having no memories or stories from this time, i tapped into a great well of pain that originated there
it was sad and it was a lot, but we made tons of progress. it feels like a layer of my psyche that has been hypervigilant my whole life has finally relaxed into a feeling of safety
my anxiety levels are noticeably down and i have more energy for other things. it feels like there are still layers and facets to attend to, but i’m excited to keep moving forward with this
we did parts work with tapping, speaking to different ages of myself, starting with prenate. working with my infant self absolutely broke me for some reason
despite having no memories or stories from this time, i tapped into a great well of pain that originated there
it was sad and it was a lot, but we made tons of progress. it feels like a layer of my psyche that has been hypervigilant my whole life has finally relaxed into a feeling of safety
my anxiety levels are noticeably down and i have more energy for other things. it feels like there are still layers and facets to attend to, but i’m excited to keep moving forward with this
i dreamed last night of being in a large glass houseboat, drifting across calm waters. there were bright pink clouds resting on the waves. the light was golden
another dream i had recently was of @gremplin breaking into fast food places to put a glass of milk on the back counter as a prank against ornery managers
the usual murder and mayhem is still there too but it’s more broken up these days
i contain multitudes etc
another dream i had recently was of @gremplin breaking into fast food places to put a glass of milk on the back counter as a prank against ornery managers
the usual murder and mayhem is still there too but it’s more broken up these days
i contain multitudes etc
i used to live in an old log cabin by the sea. in the mornings i would often have a matcha in my porcelain bowl at the window, my feet on the baseboard heater to get warmed up
it was a soothing place, nestled in the trees. being low to the water in a calm harbour is so relaxing
there were big, smooth rock formations right at the shore that made the perfect seating, and i’d often meditate there, despite usually being interrupted by seals and other wildlife
it was a soothing place, nestled in the trees. being low to the water in a calm harbour is so relaxing
there were big, smooth rock formations right at the shore that made the perfect seating, and i’d often meditate there, despite usually being interrupted by seals and other wildlife
